Good News!

Finally! A positive test!

After ten months of pregnancy tests, OB/GYN visits, ovulation tests, dashed hopes, tears, fights, and all of the other fun things that come with trying unsuccessfully to have a baby, my wife and I were treated to the most wonderful sign in the world this morning: a big fat plus-sign on a pregnancy test.

Thank you everyone for your thoughts and prayers for us in this time. It means a lot to me that I can put something this big out for the general public to chew on and can receive this much kindness in return.

I know we still have a long road ahead of us, but I don't think I've ever been as excited about a journey.

Here's My Secret

One of the advantages of the internet is quite ironic. When you have something you can't tell anyone else, you can post it online anonymously and let the world know. It seems strange that you can maintain a secret and tell the world at the same time, but hey - this is the power of the twenty-first century.

My wife and I are trying to have a baby. Nothing that surprising there. We're ready in every way we can be. Last month was the first month we tried. In fact, there was a day when I decided my wife was insanely emotional. The littlest thing happened and she was almost in tears. It was abnormal for her. In fact, she does have "emotional" days in her cycle, but never that early. Personally, I believe something hormonal was going on. I even called her on it, and she'd love to agree with me. The problem is, she can't. Not just yet.

Her cycle is usually pretty inconsistent. Sometimes four weeks. Sometimes five. Not longer, though. At just about five weeks, she took a home pregnancy test. She bought it on her own with no consultation from me or my precious internet. What she brought home was a First Response Early Response test. Turns out, that's what the web would have recommended anyway. I see claims that this test detects the lowest levels of the pregnancy hormone. Anyway, at just about five weeks, she failed the test. Not pregnant.

Fine, we'll survive. As long as her period doesn't come, she's still pregnant as far as we're concerned. It's still pretty depressing, though. You want the good news, but it doesn't come.

Anyway, that was on Monday. Today is Friday, and she took the second test in the box (they come with 2). Still a big fat negative. Still no period. Still depressing, but there's still hope. What I've read online says that her pregnancy hormone levels should be doubling every 2-3 days. I guess we'll go out and buy another test and try, try again in another couple of days. The suspense is killing us!

The other thing that makes this horrible is that there's nobody to talk to about it. I guess we could be chatting it up with our close friends, but we want this to be a surprise to people. Plus, there are some details about your life that you don't want to share with people.

Thanks for listening. Hopefully the next test will be positive. Please keep your fingers crossed for us!